Alex B is back after an extended absence. Been catching up on everyone's ex's stories and my heart goes out to everyone who has ever lost someone they truly loved.
Anyway, have been keeping the no contact rule since early-July (July 5th to be exact). It was very difficult at first as I could not think about anything other than my ex. However, getting a new job, taking a week off to visit my cousin in California, and reading some philosophy books seemed to distract me. When I returned to my hometown at the end of July I was instantly busy at work. Also spent a lot of time working out as well as biking or running long-distances.
Yet I still found time to use social-networking sites to find and meet girls. Dating 4 girls at the moment. This is very convenient since if one of them is busy, I can just call one of the other 3. Just focusing on having a good time with them, going to fairs, amusement parks, movies, restaurants, and just getting to know them. I seem to genuinely enjoy trying out different jokes, flirts, and testing their reactions. I have not gotten past hugs and kisses on cheeks with any of them and I like one in particular more than the other three who happens to be an exchange student
I may have complemented her a little too much, telling her how smart she is. But I seem to sense some interest from her. Don't really want to break it off with others since I want to keep options open.
Regarding my ex, I still have angry thoughts about her and the new guy she is dating. I often fantazize about revenge but it is not as frequent as it used to be. My thoughts about her tend to be negative, writing some poetry seemed to help. I seem to have a sense that as soon as I get serious with one of the girls I am dating I will forget about her and the pain will be gone. Just having trouble making the transition from occasional hand holding, flirting, and hugging to actually kissing. Read the article about that so try to maintain eye contact. But basically I try not to make it my main goal, but keeping it as secondary. Hope to go to the mountains with one of the girls as it would be a more intimate setting.
Anyways, thanks for everyone's support - will stop by here once in a while to read whats new.