So yeah, about 3 and a half months ago, my girlfriend of 3 years years broke up with me.
One day, we got into a small argument. Amanda made a short comment about me being a quiet person. Which I am. I am more of a heavy thinker, who only says something when it is needed. But, I am able to hold a good conversation. And also be the center of attention, funny guy. But, most times, I like having the silence. Some good soft music playing in the background, while I work on a project. Usually a piece of artwork, or another film (which I'm going into for a career)
Well, after the argument, Amanda said that she would have her best friend Damara pick her up from ballet practice.
Damara has always been jealous of our relationship. She is also crazy.
The next day came along. I drove to her house in the morning. She said I was early. I got there when I usually did. I went to go lie in bed with her, and she said no. It shocked me, and I left her room, and waited in the living room. (Only because I was her ride to school. She would ride the bus, but, there is a group of guys who ride the same bus who have... made a move on her and have tried to physically pull her). Eventually though, she called me over, and I lied down with her. Everything seemed normal after that. But then when I dropped her off at school, she wouldnt give me a kiss. Which concerned me.
But later that day, I picked her up (I go to school later, and leave earlier.) and she needed to talk to me...
I didnt want to believe it at first, naturally. I was "okay" with it. It was the normal college break up, which I kinda expected, but I was just not ready for it.
In march, we went to an Orienteering competition in the Sam Houston Nation Forest.
While there, we took a little weekend camping vacation as well. On the first night, I remember us sitting by the lake. It was right there, with her wearing my jacket, curled up on my lap, I realized that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with this girl. (This wasn't a spontaneous decision. I had been thinking about it for about 4 months already.)
Well, about a week later after the break up, I snapped. I didn't want to believe the reason for the break up, because it didn't seem right. There was something in the air, that didn't feel right. And I didnt want to lose her.
I confronted her, and asked her what the real reason was. I
She said we're too different. Um, yeah, we're different in some areas. But, we also have a lot in common.
We ended up getting into this huge screaming argument, that lasted for well over an hour... Yeah...
We stopped talking for a while. But eventually, she started calling me, asking for a ride to school because she woke up late.
I told myself, don't do it. If I go and give her a ride, she will ask for another, and another, and start using me.
But, being me, and always looking out for others, making sure that they are okay... I gave her a ride.
I went to pick her up, and she made me breakfast. Which was weird, but I stayed and had breakfast, and then took her to school. And well, i did it again and again. The only reason though, was because she was showing interest in me. It wasnt just me wanting to do something nice for her. I could see that she was interested in me.
Then one day, she went cold, and said that she couldnt accept ask me for any more rides. She aid that she felt like she was leading me on. Which actually she was.
I asked mad for some reason. I dont remember why... And we stopped talking. She eventually told me not to call, text or approach her at all.
I respected that, and left her alone.
Eventually, she started calling me again, and then went cold.
And it has been like this ever since.
She calls me, we start talking, and she goes cold.
Back in early july, she started calling me a lot more. We even got a date going. She also asked me if I was dating anyone.
I was getting ready to get another date going, a little over a week later. But, she went cold.
We got into one more argument, which ended with her telling me that we are two separate people in this world, going down two separate roads. We don't know each other at all. She even deleted my phone number from her cell right in front of me.
A few weeks ago, about 3 weeks ago I think, she called me, asking me if I remembered where and what she buried our pet hamster in. She was afraid that she buried it in a jewelry box, which had the promise ring I bought her on our first Christmas in it.
But, she used that topic to get another one going. She wanted to know who this girl I was running around with was. And she didnt just ask me. She was asking a bunch of other people first.
I told her who she was. Amanda then told me that she was "happy" for me, and did the whole, take care of yourself thing. Obviously concerned and whatnot.
Well, the next day, I bumped into her at a gas station. I gave her a short hello, payed for my gas and left.
Trying to portray that whole, I've moved on. She even saw my new girlfriend (who I broke up with because it felt more like just friends) in my car as I pumped the gas.
But then that night, I had a bunch of clothes, pictures of me and amanda, movies, cd's, etc. dumped in my car.
Her best friend damara texted me all night long, calling me a stalker because I showed up at her house one night to talk to Amanda. I left her a letter saying that we shouldnt be seeing each other considering all we do is argue right now. And then because I bumped into her at a gas station... Yeah...
But through this conversation, I realized the real reason why Amanda broke up with me. Yeah, 3 months later. Her best friend Damara missed her, and took advantage of that night we had an argument to convince Amanda that she wasnt happy with me. Amanda also missed her best friend as well by the way.
Damara took every single thing Amanda wasnt happy about, and blamed it on me.
Now I am moving from Corpus Christi, Texas, all the way up to Dallas, Texas. Thee two places are polar opposites. C.C. is on the farthest southern area, and Dallas is all the way up at the very top of the state.
I am hearing that Amanda is starting to miss me, and realize how much of a mistake she has made. She is realizing that her friend is crazy.
But, then I hear from 1 person, that she is glad that I am moving.
